I'm thinking Chinatown, maybe checking out that new Mahayana temple that's there. It sounds pretty impressive. I wish there were some elaborate way to convert to Buddhism, like the way one might convert to Judaism. I mean, sure, I can just call myself a Buddhist, but that just sounds like bullshit. I know, it shouldn't matter how it sounds. I know, I probably have some sort of silly psychological reason for wanting to be able to wear the label, that way. I just do.
I don't believe in a lot of it, the way it's commonly understood, though. Karma, rebirth, enlightenment even? Not really. I mean, I don't know, it just doesn't fit with anything I've seen any real evidence of. It makes a hell of more sense to me, to dissect and rearrange the terms into something logical, something that might have been what was originally intended - or might just be a total reconstruction of primitive nonsense. I'm honestly not sure.
Buddhism entails so many brilliant ideas, at the very least. Even if I have my doubts about some of it - and that's just it, even the doubting is encouraged. Buddhism doesn't have to be about having faith in anything, and that's a big draw for me.
Community is important, though. It's a major component of every religion. I've even heard Jews refer to G-d as being another word for community, and I thought that was an interesting way of putting it. A little acrobatic, but still. Whatever works for you.
In Buddhism, it's called Sangha, and between my social anxiety and being on the wrong side of the planet, I haven't had much luck with that. The thing is, I haven't exactly connected with the Jewish community, either.