I've been feeling really lousy the past few weeks. Sleeping later, can't get to sleep at night, haven't felt like cooking, my apartment's a mess, keep procrastinating laundry, shopping. I haven't been running. I even run out of beer, and just go a few days without it, rather than restocking immediately.
Essentially, I feel like my old self again. Like my Omnitrope suddenly stopped working. I keep thinking maybe I got a bad batch. Maybe they didn't refrigerate it at the pharmacy. I keep thinking I'm just grasping at straws, making excuses. More likely just relapsing, back to my lousy baseline, because this is who I am. Now that the novelty of my new apartment has worn off, I'm just stagnating, like I always have.
It wasn't until today that I remembered, I forgot to refrigerate it myself, when I first got it. I'd left in my coat pocket for a few hours, before an "oh crap!" moment, when I remembered it was there, and jumped up to put it in the fridge.
I remember thinking, it's just been a few hours, right? I'm sure it's fine.
Maybe it'd been a few more hours than I'd thought. Maybe it goes bad more quickly than I'd thought. It's $1400 worth, and I don't even have an endocrinologist yet, to check my IGF-1 levels - that would prove whether I'm right about this, or just a whiner.
Still waiting on the referral for that, should be any day now. Maybe a week or two. In the meantime, I'll have to use up what I've got anyhow, and see if I feel better by spring..