I've been seeing a lot of talk about all the vulnerable types who will be hurt by a Trump presidency. I'm afraid to even post this to Facebook, because to even question that will outrage good people that I'd rather not antagonize, but a lot of what they're afraid of is already happening. This country is falling apart, but this is mostly coming from people who are doing ok.
Their concern for others is admirable and all, but guess what? It's actually me that's frighteningly close to the top of that list of vulnerable people. I scrape by on about 10k a year, the official and arbitrarily low poverty line being almost twice that much. While the GOP salivates at the prospect of shredding the safety net I'm clinging to. What would that mean for me? I could lose everything, food, shelter, medical insurance, all hanging by a thread as it is. I know, I know, that's totally different, because it's my own fault for having crippling mental health issues.
What pisses me off about that narrative though, is that Mr. Trump isn't the real threat. Replace him with any other Republican, and it's the same. The real threat we all face is that the GOP now dominates all three branches of government - and that is a very grave threat, and I'm honestly scared.. but it's the threat that I voted for, by refusing to support Clinton.
I voted Stein/Baraka, but I also understand the argument that it was a vote not to stop Trump. Technically, I live in a deep blue state, so that's not true. Trump lost by thirty points here, so my vote honestly didn't matter - but I would have also voted Stein in a swing state. I would have even relished the vote more, because of the protest it equated to.
So, here's the awful socially suicidal truth. It was the outcome that I wanted. It is the outcome that I am happy with. Unlike much of the country, my mood actually improved dramatically, as soon as I heard the news. I was all fired up and ready to engage with people. What chaos! This could be catastrophic, but it could still be a great opportunity for progress. We're already seeing the fights play out for party leadership, now that their side fucked up so badly. They lost to Trump, of all people! Their political careers should be over.
This is what makes unrest so dangerous. People whose lives are already shit stop caring if things get worse. Anything for the chance to make things better. For people who are doing fine, that's horrifying, but you know what? I find it a little difficult to sympathize with the beneficiaries of a society that's screwed me over this badly. It may not be entirely logical, but it is indisputably how I feel.
As long as I'm on the fringes, it doesn't matter though. If I get too desperate and pose a threat, they can just lock me up, but other than that, they don't give a fuck. What this election made me realize though, is that I'm not on the fringes. A whole lot of this country is suffering and outraged, and ready to risk burning it all down for the chance to make things better.
When I thought Clinton was going to win, I was despondent. I've been miserable for months, thinking it was a foregone conclusion, because our lying propagandist media said that was the case. I had my doubts, I knew Trump had a chance. I knew turnout on the left was going to be awful.. but I thought Clinton would probably pull ahead anyhow. The country would be saved from imminent disaster, but the status quo would be reinforced, the left wing of the Democratic Party again soundly vanquished, as Bill Clinton did before her.
For me, that was, and still is, the greater concern. We need a progressive movement in this country. We need it to succeed, and neoliberalism is keeping that from happening. If we can't win this, I think we're heading for dark times that will make being scared of Trump look like a bad joke. Clinton was the more serious threat, and I celebrate her defeat, fully aware that we're still in serious danger.