Many things occur to me as I watch the rainforest episode of Planet Earth II. Some things more relevant to what I was (trying to) watch, more than others. One in particular that seemed worth jotting down, was what it means, that so many things occur to me.
I've come to understand that this is my Default Mode Network being loud and unruly. If it were just distracting, that would be problematic enough, but it's often something miserable, too. I guess what I'm trying to say, is that it can be rather unpleasant. It occurs to me that I'm drawn to activities which get it to shut the hell up for a while. Things that demand my attention and interaction, like gaming or trolling the Facebook #BernieWouldveWon
It's a need to be constantly distracted. Driven to distraction. The outcome being the attention deficit that it causes. I think it's a habit that I learned pretty young. I wonder if it had anything to do with that Atari 400.
My father had friends who were video game pirates. I don't know if they were hackers or deck swabs or what, but they gave my father lots of free games. Basically, all of them. If it were published, we had a pirate copy. Boxes full of floppy discs with the names of video games, sometimes 3 or 4 crammed onto one disc, scribbled in black sharpie. I even remember lamenting that maybe it wasn't good, how I'd play each one for about 12 seconds, get bored, and play the next one.
So, yeah. I'll go back to watching an amazing documentary now. One of the best I've seen, while my default mode network pulls my hair, and bites me in the ear, as I'm trying to pay attention.