I don't make a clear distinction between Axis I mood disorders and normal emotions. To me, it just seems to be a matter of degrees. A treatment for depression should also be a treatment for loneliness, or mourning, or legitimate exhaustion.
My understanding is that a person with depression feels these same emotions, but triggered more easily, more strongly. A treatment for anxiety should also work when you have good reason to be afraid. How about a drug to make me feel motivated or obsessed with doing stuff, the way other people seem to be? I think one day, maybe we'll have iCortex apps, that let us pick whatever emotions we want.
Advancements like this might be dangerous, but right now, I don't think they'd know how to do it, even if they wanted to That neither psychiatric medication nor recreational drugs work this way makes me think all they're really doing is poking around the margins, sometimes taking the edge off. Sometimes that's enough to help. Sometimes not.
I get frustrated that I seem to be very firmly in the "treatment resistant" category. Often reminding myself that in my case, this could be due to my medical condition. It's known to cause problems of this nature, though I seem to be an extreme case. I just never really know, and it's so frustrating. I've known lots of other treatment resistant nutcases in my life, and tend to think in a broader sense, this frustration is not so rare.
I'm running again though, and that's a good sign. Also seem to be doing unusually well with it, considering that I've been slacking off for six months. I expected a longer climb to get to the same shape I was in, but almost seem to be doing better than I was, already. I'm thinking this must be the effect of the Omnitrope, so at least it's doing something.