human shields

 It's a pretty vile accusation, but.

It has become increasingly clear to me that the powers that be do not care about Ukrainians. All the recent talk about how they only care about white countries is to distract from the reality that they don't care at all. NATO's puppeteers want Ukraine to suffer. They want volunteers from all around the world to go there and get blown up. Think of the headlines.

What kind of war has people volunteering from all over to join in? This is the craziest propaganda campaign I've ever seen, and I'm someone that's old enough to remember #russiagate. Course it's those dastardly Russians again. This confrontation has been in the works for a while.

It's amazing how many people don't even understand what NATO has to do with anything. They argue against the strawman of Putin being there to fight Nazis. Some of the people he's been fighting are big fans of Stepan Bandera, but that's not why he's there. It's been made explicitly clear many times over that NATO crossed a "red line" by setting up military infrastructure in Ukraine. Whether Ukraine joins NATO or not becomes a moot point, if NATO's militarizing their borders, regardless.

That is what Putin claims as justification. That is what we knew would have this consequence. We were warned that Russia was about to invade, because NATO was about to provoke it. Easy to predict things when you're the cause of them happening. It makes very little sense to question this explanation, only to pretend he wants to march west as far as he can. He doesn't even want Ukraine. It will be a quagmire for Russia, for many years. That's exactly what the US wants. This is why they're declining even the most basic diplomacy. They've decided to sacrifice Ukraine to get Russia.

People are so deranged, they're talking no-fly zones. Zelenskyj himself, proving to be an absolute psychopath, demanding NATO shoot down Russian aircraft, rather than work anything out diplomatically. Even worse, a surge in talking points and articles about the dangers of nuclear holocaust being overblown. Are we seriously at the brink of wiping out all life on earth, because people are this stupid?

"..the west is leading Ukraine down the primrose path and the end result is that Ukraine is going to get wrecked." -John Mearsheimer, 2015

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On a brighter note, I got punched in the face a lot today. Even got my first bloody nose - from that woman who doesn't want people going too light on her. That'll teach me. Afterwards, she thanked me for not holding back. I was a little shocked, because I was still holding way back. I've been afraid I go too easy on everyone, so I asked another guy, and he tells me I do go pretty hard.

What?! I hardly ever hit anyone in the face, and when I do, it's ridiculously gentle. I mostly aim for the body because it feels safer, but still, I'm going super light. Sparred that biggest-guy-in-the-gym again today. He tells me I've got a lot of power, and I'm thinking dude, I barely even hit you. I wonder if he thinks he barely hit me, too. Literally more than twice my weight, it makes a little more sense the other way around, but he sure nailed me a couple times. Turns out it was because he was getting a little mad. 

I worry so much about going too hard, but I've been going too hard all along? I'm fast and aggressive, and maybe that's what people respond to. They perceive that as going hard, even though I'm barely hitting them. I don't know, I need to talk to one of the coaches about this. I'm honestly not sure what to make of it. 

I'll be back at the gym tomorrow. Still getting there just about every day. Somehow, still in one piece.