Judging from the commercials that find me even on the internet now, this is how they eat. It's a lot cheaper, too. Buying any variety of vegetables adds up quickly, and most of them rot in just a few days. It's taken me like twenty years to figure out how to cook them, and like realizing the emptiness of emptiness, that sometimes it's better not to.Donut Fries. Donut Fries. Donut Fries. pic.twitter.com/qUlVvyj0pz— NowThis (@nowthisnews) April 6, 2018
I've been doing ok, I use lots of legumes, but I've known a lot of people who just grab something like donut fries instead. Coffee, to help trick the body into thinking we just ate something substantial. Not that I'd know anything about that myself. I've always liked simple coffee though. The sorts of things they grab at Starbucks can be something else.
I get the munchies at night when I'm fasting, and I see videos like this in my feed. Reading through as I ponder my latest one line critique of capitalism, there it is, taunting me. I seem to have some kind of willpower, but getting myself to do things gets so much more complicated. I keep slipping. I figure it out again. It's not that complicated, but I forget that I just need to decide to do things. Wait, how does higher executive functioning work again?
My ribs are still too sore to do much, so I've become more acutely aware that I've been gradually doing less and less, already. As if taking judo is some sort of excuse not to do much else. Like there's some sort of "done stuff" quota that I need to fill - so that I can spend the rest of my time bored, wondering why I'm not doing anything? I'm having trouble getting it through my head that doing stuff is good. It even seems to put me in a better mood. Doing nothing hasn't worked out well, and yet still, it's this incredibly labyrinthine task to keep that in mind, to keep pushing forward.
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