trust me

because I don't trust myself.  I don't trust anyone.. but I know trust is important, so please trust me.

What is it to trust someone?  Do I trust that everything a person says is entirely true and authentic?  That they're never wrong, never say shit they don't mean when they're angry?  This would be crazy.  Do I trust some deeper truth of who a person is, do I trust myself to discern it?

Why do we trust?  Why don't we?  The young are trusting, before they learn how badly we can be hurt.  We learn not to trust.  We learn that people can't be trusted.  We learn that we can't trust ourselves to even figure out who can be trusted.  We lose the capacity to form healthy connections at all.

When we can't handle it, we can learn that pain itself is worse than it is.  That to be hurt is some catastrophe, when it's just life.. but we have to trust that we can handle it.  We have to be able to take risks, without the fear that those risks might destroy us.  We need to be sure that we won't be so easily destroyed.