slow processing

Finally got some Muay Thai sparring in last Friday.  I'm rusty as hell, but it was great.  I have lots of bad point-sparring habits I need to break.  So, I was looking forward to doing some more of it tonight, but no luck, no sparring tonight.  I thought about asking, but didn't feel quite confident enough to risk initiating anything.

It was open mat after class, and in theory I could just ask if anyone wanted to spar,but I'm not actually sure the kickboxing works that way.  They don't do a lot of it.  I could ask about anything of this, but you know, I'm still working on this stuff.  The boxing people spar all the time, but I only take that class to round out my practice.  I don't want to do any regular boxing. 

I've been going to these striking classes again, Judo/BJJ once a week.  Jog about twice a week.  Meditate every morning.  Well, almost every morning.  Been biking all over the place lately.  Practicing the math a few hours a day, too.

Found a great web site that breaks any problem I plug into it down into all the steps required to solve it.  Gibberish like this? No problem.

I've been reading about what they call "processing speed" and how if it's "slow" it results in some awfully familiar symptoms.  In torpere, Latin for being slow. Ленивецa, lenivetsa, Russian for being slow.  It feels like I'm on another wavelength, I've often said.  All three might be interpreted differently, but just happen to technically refer more to being slow.  One study found that slow processing uniquely interferes with peer relationships; "they were surprised to find that a slow processing speed had a greater impact on peer problems than all the other subcomponents of cognitive function that they measured."

Maybe this is why I can't really follow what my teachers are saying, particularly when they're explaining complex multi-step problems.  They say math can be especially problematic.  I'm better at following the steps on Symbolab though, which is all the same stuff my teacher has been saying.  I recognize it. Seems I just need to go through it at a sloth's pace to understand and remember it, but I think I might actually get there before the final.

It is healthy having goals like this.  I'm going to need to figure out some new ones soon.