speaking of addiction

Walking home from BJJ class Thursday night, I thought about how I often question the point.  I thought about how much I enjoy it, and how that should be more than enough.  Not sure why I have so much doubt about it.  As I've been going to more classes, I've been getting back into the swing of it, my old skills gradually coming back to me.  My muscles getting back into shape enough to do what they're supposed to.  Sort of.  I have a ways to go.

Next class isn't until Tuesday.  I have some other bullshit to worry about in the meantime.  Land baron called, said the apartment needs to be inspected, next Thursday.  I hope it's just a routine thing, and not because they're selling the house.  That would be a huge hassle I don't want to have to deal with.  I also have to clean my apartment before then.  A small hassle, that I can't even deal with.

So, doing well, but could be better.  My apartment is messy again.  I keep thinking about what I'm doing differently, that might be making things more difficult.  Maybe I can scratch running off of that last, but I'm not sure.  It is a unique type of cardio that might be uniquely beneficial.  Lots of snow again, I've barely been able to run twice a month.  I ran out of that omega-3 stuff, maybe that's it.

I also stopped drinking coffee entirely.  Just tea once in a while, this past month or so.  I should probably try coffee a little more often.  I keep reading articles about how coffee drinkers live three times as long, can hold their breath for half an hour, and spontaneously learn coding.

I'm spending too much time at my computer.  That one occurred to me recently.  I don't know how it happened, but bad habits come creeping back.  Next thing I know, I'm sitting here all day, every day, not feeling like doing anything at all ever.  Still doing some things, but that's not the point.  I've been mostly doing lots of this, and feeling worse.

Pretty sure I need to put some discipline back into doing less.  Go back to meditating for a few hours a day if I have to.

Bah, just when I was starting to get the hang of Twitter.