training blog

Seems odd to me that my blog has mostly been about training lately. It's where my head is at, and where I want to be. I'm either blogging about training, or blogging about how depressed I am that I'm not training. I don't know what else matters anymore, everything I used to go on about.. I'm glad it's there, but I don't feel like going on about it anymore.

I spoke to one of the instructors about competing tonight. We had a good conversation, and I feel like it was the first step towards actually doing it. We talked about finding training partners who I'd be able to do some hard sparring with to work my way up to it. He also offered to be one of those hard sparring partners.

I feel like I got my foot in the door, and the natural trajectory will be to push forward. We'll see. It's a huge problem that I sink back into depression sitting at home, such that my confidence withers and I freak out over what I'm getting myself into.

I can't sleep because I'm laying in bed practicing combos.