bloodied

Accidentally gave someone a bloody nose at the gym today, for the first time since I've been training there. Not hurting my training partners is a high priority for me. I pride myself on being pretty good at it.

She's not entirely gone. I've been making contradictory statements, because it's more complicated than that. Her heart doesn't seem to be in it anymore, but she's still part of the gym community and still teaches. She shows up a lot less and hasn't been participating or training much, herself. But she's around.

I've been avoiding the classes she might be at. I showed up today, and the regular coach for today's class had called in sick. She was substituting for him. Doh. Funny how these things work out. She even asked me to spar during open mat after class, for the first time in months. I swear, I barely touched her. It's winter, her nose bleeds really easily.. but yeah, funny how things work out.

It forced me to face her and what could I do but accept and adapt. Nothing has changed.

Well, not nothing exactly. I can't go on the way I had been. Think I'll still be avoiding her for a while, moving forward.