living in the world

My search for guidance has not been going so well.  The system is more of a mess than I'd realized, and seems to have even gone downhill in the past two years I've been here.  I've been striking out in my efforts at choosing a social worker that would help me navigate a transition into academia.

That is, one with an emphasis on external, practical solutions, as opposed to the countless psychotherapists who will hash out my feelings and history, week after week, month after month.  I've done enough of that in my life.  It's not what I'm looking for, but seems to be all many mental health professionals offer.

I'm thinking that I might need to take some initial steps on my own.  Not to be cryptic about it, but my impulse is often to leave the specifics out of my more personal posts. I mean that I need to look into my financial aid options and how to enroll in the community college that's just a few blocks from where I live.  It's a little school that only offers some basics, but as I understand it, this would lay the groundwork to enroll in a more interesting university later.  I'm also thinking that once I get started, I'd have access to advisers who would help me figure out if I'm even going in the right direction.

Right now though, I need to wait for the Zoloft to kick in, or at least to stop making me worse.  This should take another two weeks or so.

*update, made an appointment with someone this morning, so now I'm just nervous.  I think part of my plan here is to force myself to stick to my plan.