a mild case of cancer

Had a follow-up exam of sorts today with a surgeon. She doesn't think I'll need surgery, but now we're waiting for more biopsy results to be sure. So I'm feeling optimistic, but it's strange getting Cancer.. and it can be this inconsequential? It feels almost too good to be true. I'm deeply concerned finding out that I'm prone to this, but I even went to class tonight. I had to leave after kickboxing, without taking BJJ, not because of the cancer, but my ribs still hurt. I'm thinking it might be a pulled muscle.

If anyone were to wonder where I've been the past few weeks, I might tell them I've been getting over a mild case of cancer. I don't think anyone's wondering though. It's even possible no one's noticed. As far as social outlets go, it helps, but I'm not exactly hitting it off with these people. There's another park spar coming up though, and it is nice to know I probably won't be recovering from surgery for it.

Or dying of cancer, because I'd waited another few months to see a doctor. Early detection is so important, and now I understand how early it has to be. Even stage two is too late. That can be early, but it's already metastasized, and that becomes so much harder to deal with. They've got to come up with better ways to just test everyone regularly.

In the meantime, I need to change my lifestyle somehow. I'm just not sure what the culprit is. I'll eat more broccoli, and I'm not in the middle of a pandemic anymore, so that should help. I should probably try to spend a lot less time sitting around feeling stressed out and unhappy too.

[edit for biopsy results: negative for adenoma or malignancy, no significant diagnostic abnormalities. Officially cancer-free now.]